M, 2001 - 05 David Harth M, 2001 - 05 David Harth

Moving Water

I tried with all my might,

my physical strength

and my emotional strength;

but I could not do it.

I could not move the water.

I pushed and pushed with all my might.

I budged and I pulled and I pressed and I packed.

I couldn’t move that water.

I tried so very hard.

 

I tried to stare at it for lengthy period of times,

hoping for something out of this universe to move that water.

Hoping somehow, some way, that the water would move;

but it did not.

 

I tried my best,

but I was unsuccessful.

There was nothing more I could do.

I tried all my might to move that water.

But nothing happened.

The water didn’t even budge or sink or flow or trickle.

That water is staying put,

and put is put and put is put.

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.11.18.03:41:02@296NYC

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I Want To Fall In Love Just Once

Just Once

Like in the movies I see

Like all the lovers I see

 

Just Once

Like the boys and girls

Like the sweetness I witness and never receive

 

Just Once

I want to be someone’s teddy bear

Someone’s honey

Someone’s bunny

 

Just Once

I want to cruise with a lover in my arms

I want to float in the air with a lover at my side

 

Just Once

Like the music I listen too

Like the dramatic theatre productions that I watch

 

Just Once

Like my friends and relatives

Like my professors and grandparents

Like my co-workers and past significant others

 

Just Once

During the holidays

During the Fourth Of July

During the New Year’s celebration

 

Just Once

During the first snowfall

During the August down pour

During the change of seasons

 

Just Once

During the central park walk

During the vast ceremonies

During the mellow drinks at the corner bar

 

Just Once

I want to be someone’s sugar pie

Someone’s pumpkin pie

Someone’s apple pie

 

Just Once

I want to fall in love

And never get out of it

 

Just Once

I want to fall in love

And get lost in it

 

Just Once

I want to fall in love

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.11.16.03:53:47@296NYC

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I Cry (Version #2)

I cry,

because I can’t meet your parents

or take a road trip with you.

 

I cry,

because I can’t have Thanksgiving with you,

or rent a movie with you.

 

I cry,

because I can’t watch you apply lipstick to your lips

or watch you wash your hair.

 

I cry,

because I can’t dance with you

or listen to you breathing in your sleep.

 

I cry,

because I can’t walk with you in the park

or go to an opening gala at a museum with you.

 

I cry,

because I can’t hold your hand

or expose our love to the world.

 

I cry,

because I can’t get lost in your eyes

or listen to the ocean with you.

 

I cry,

because I can’t view sunsets with you

or make love to you.

 

I cry,

because you can’t cuddle on my shoulder on an airplane ride

or let me embrace you during a cold winter night.

 

I cry,

because from sea to sea,

land to land,

I have not met you.

 

I cry,

because I want to be on an airplane with you,

kiss you and hold your hand

as we descend upon the NYC skyline.

 

I cry,

all the time I cry.

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.10.27.14:29@296NYC

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Morning (Version #2)

She smiled at me

as she rolled over

on the soft white bed sheets.

She looked up at me in a gaze

with the most beautiful morning eyes.

She left with no words spoken

and my heart was broken.

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.10.20.01:12:07@296NYC

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L, 2001 - 05 David Harth L, 2001 - 05 David Harth

Loss

haven’t contained

i have only lost

haven’t obtained

i have only lost

haven’t gained

i have only lost

haven’t won

I have only lost

haven’t utilized

I have only lost

 

My sense of loss is great

greater than mankind

womankind

humankind

or for that kind,

womyn kind

 

Greater than a sense

beyond a thought

drawn pathways

passage doors

overlooking streets

 from Milstein to Babies

 

Loss,

it’s what I have,

Lack,

it’s what I cherish

Loss,

it’s what I have earned

and learned, but,

certainly, I have not

yearned

 

Loss, my beauty,

is in my eyes

a reflection of you

but you are not there

but gone

as a wish

blown in the wind...

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.10.12.01:08:04@296NYC

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Love (Version #16)

Love is beyond

the comprehension

of those that drift

in this world.

 

The concept of love

is so beyond

great, immense,

wonderful and beautiful.

 

Love is out of reach

for many who possess

the largest heart

in the world.

 

Love is beyond

any amount of

desire, lust or warmth,

that a person may have.

 

Love is lost

among those that

wander opposite

sides of the earth.

 

Love never finds

two people,

it only ignores

those who want

it the most.

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.10.06.01:05:22@296NYC

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shared dream

My friend had a dream the other night about me.

This is what he had to say:

 

I had a very disturbing dream about you tonight.

i dreamed that you died (of encephalitis!),

and then i was on a boat,

and walked into the kitchen of the boat.

there was this huge fat cook

who was dissecting your head

and taking your eyes out.

it was you, definitely!

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.10.02.23:34:00@296NYC

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loving

I can hear the wind rustle

your grey Brillo-like hair.

I can hear the dust sand-blasting

your old-aged skin.

 

I can see your liver spots,

sprouting on your cheeks,

and on the palms of your hands

that held mine for so many years.

 

I can smell the scent of your urine,

as you struggle to make it to the toilet in time.

I can still smell the first bouquet of flowers

you bought me so many years ago.

 

I can touch your face filled with folds and creases,

and admire the years I’ve grown with you.

I can fall in love with you,

just by gazing into your foggy eyes.

 

I can comb your knotted hair clean,

I can place your worn shoes on your feet,

I can help you walk up the stairs,

I can give you your different colored medications.

 

I can hear the disease crawling on your surface.

I can listen to it penetrate your soul.

I can see the vivid dreams which you now act out.

I can look at the warmth you distribute through your native tongue.

I can smell the chocolate chip cookies baking in the oven.

I can feel the first snowfall we shared in the park.

 

I know you are fading away,

slowly reaching upwards,

to your night-time bed.

Slowly, leaving this place,

peacefully.

 

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.09.26.12:52:57@296NYC

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Tuesday

If I could reverse time,

at the moment it was possible,

I would continue to reverse it

as many times as possible,

so, I could come back to that Tuesday

and be the one to jump,

instead of you.

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.09.13.20:57:45 @ 296 NYC

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In The Shade

In the shade,

creeping up in the shadows,

out of the darkness,

he pounces on his prey.

Tears at her flesh

and eats her alive.

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.09.12.12:05:54@296NYC

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Silence

And on that day,

Clear September day,

Not a sound,

Not even a swirl of wind.

No motion,

No movement.

Nothing brought,

Nothing forgotten.

Simple reminders,

Every day.

Together,

Survivors of history.

Challenged by today,

Survivors of strength.

Too many,

We may bleed.

Remember then,

The passing is not forgotten,

But only remains,

A constant quiet,

A silence.

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.09.11.23:52:26@296NYC

September 11th 2003

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Lovers Lost

Lovers,

going among the dance floor

finding themselves

lost among each other

 

Lovers,

attempting to find a match

before the night comes to a close

not after the last flight out

 

Lovers,

following the sparkling lights

and moonrise above the mountain tops

a mile above sea

 

Lovers,

finishing their last cocktail

smoking their last fag

dancing their last step

 

Lovers,

searching each other’s eyes

trying to find that moment’s connection

to put the day’s events behind

 

Lovers,

reminding themselves that today is their future

while tomorrow life goes on

and yesterday was only a memory

 

Lovers,

lost on this dance floor in which we break

this dance floor which we make

this dance floor which we hate

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.09.05.02:14:33@296NYC

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Numb

Numb from the blindness

Numb from the taste

Numb from what she left behind

 

Numb in my throat

Numb in my mind

Numb in my cancer

 

Numb without spit

Numb without love

Numb without regret

 

Numb with thought

Numb with ease

Numb with wonderment

 

Numb through the valley of darkness

Numb through the parted waters by staff

Numb through the sky of limits

 

Numb on the ark of forage

Numb on the sea of waiting

Numb on the land of growth

 

Numb feeling in my memory

Numb feeling in my overloaded senses

Numb feeling in my wet tongue

 

Numb from sealing envelopes of the fourteenth

Numb from stroking the tired

Numb from thinking aloud

 

Numb waiting for she

Numb waiting for the hunger to end

Numb waiting for the completion

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.08.26.03:50:47@296NYC

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Again

It’s happened once again.

Woke up this morning.

Wasn’t me today.

Someone else, beyond that mirror.

Stared at myself.

Looked deeply into my blue eyes.

Hypnotized by the various shades and hues of blues cascading out of my pupil.

Bursting like a miniature universe of loss and uncertainty.

Followed the pattern my eyebrows made over them.

Noticed how they guarded my crucial art eye from the outskirts of the public eye.

Looked at every pore of my skin, on my nose cheeks and chin.

Followed the lines of my lips; the top one thinner than the bottom.

Looked carefully at my facial hair.

The reds, the deep browns, the blacks.

 

I stood in front of the mirror staring.

Not knowing how long it would last.

When I would wake up, once again, me, instead of him.

Hurt. No. But I apologize, I must go sleep.

I’ll be back tomorrow, perhaps.

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.08.24.23:57:18@296NYC

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Those

There are those

who travel with you,

and there are those

who you leave behind.

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

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Gravity

You’re pulling me nearby,

I can’t let go.

 

I recognize how much I love,

But I cannot face the truth.

 

You’re overwhelming,

I must bow out.

 

I see how much you love me,

But I can’t be here for you.

 

You’re not letting me be myself,

By depersonalizing me.

 

I hear your voice calling my name,

But I refuse to hear the words you speak.

 

You’re not loving me,

Smothering me with your heart.

 

I hear the door lock,

The key falling to the floor.

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.08.16.17:38:07@296NYC

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Left In The Dark

You left me.

Without saying a word,

you left.

 

After the evening,

the shared passion,

the lust.

 

You walked up and left me.

Now I lie here,

alone,

invisible,

with open hands,

left in the dark.

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.08.16.01:11:11@296NYC

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Spoiled Contents Of A Blackout Refrigerator

1 Half Gallon (1.89L) of Elmhurst Dairy 100% Fat Free Milk

(Pasteurized Vitamin A&D Skim Milk with No Hormones Added and No Antibiotics)

(Expiration Date of August 21st 2003)

 

1/6 of a jar 46OZ (2lbs 14oz)(1.30kg) of Mott’s Natural Apple Sauce

(Unsweetened & No Preservatives)

 

1/3 of a container of Papetti Foods Better’n Eggs Healthier Real Egg Product

(Fat Free & Cholesterol Free) 16oz, 1lb 454g

pasteurized for safety Oct 17 2003

 

1 full container of Papetti Foods Better’n Eggs Healthier Real Egg Product

(Fat Free & Cholesterol Free) 16oz, 1lb 454g

pasteurized for safety Oct 17 2003

 

1/2 of a bottle of House of Tsang Bangkok Padang Peanut Sauce 11.5oz 326g

 

1/2 of a bottle of ReaLemon Lemon Juice From Concentrate Natural Strength 15floz 443ml

 

2/3 of a bottle of San-J Reduced Sodium Tamari Natural Soy Sauce 10floz 296ml

 

9/10 of a jar of Hellmann’s Just 2 Good! Reduced Fat Mayonnaise Dressing

32floz 1qt .95L sept 13, 2003

 

11 slices of Kraft Fat Free singles Sharp Cheddar artificially flavored

nonfat pasteurized process cheese product

16 singles package 3/4 oz each

12oz net wt 340g

 

4/5 of tub of Hotel Bar salted whipped butter 8oz 227g Oct82003

 

1/2 of tub of Kraft Philadelphia Fat Free Cream Cheese 12oz 340g March 21 2003

 

1/2 jar of Spice World Ground Ginger 4oz 113g

 

19/20 of bottle of Heinz Tomato Ketchup 24oz 1lb8oz 680g

 

1/3 bottle of Hershey’s Lite Syrup Genuine Chocolate Flavor

18.5oz 1lb2.5oz 524g

 

8/10 bottle of Crystal Louisiana’s Pure Hot Sauce 12floz 335ml

 

2nd bottle, also 8/10 of bottle of Crystal Louisiana’s Pure Hot Sauce 12floz 335ml

 

8/10 of jar of Super Associated Strawberry Fancy Pure Preserves NetWt 18oz 1lb2oz 510g

 

8/10 of jar of Heinz Sweet Relish 10floz 296ml

 

6/10 of bottle of French’s Classic Yellow Mustard with the stay clean cap 8oz 226g

 

26 grape tomatoes Bald Eagle Farm; Jersey Sweet Grape Tomatoes 1 U.S. dry pint, 551ml

 

1/2 bottle of 4C All Natural 100% imported Parmesan grated cheese No preservatives net wt 6oz 170g

 

1 1/4 medium sized cucumber

 

2 medium sized Sunkist Valencia Oranges

 

1 small lime

 

Selected Green Giant Fresh Carrots net wt 1lb 453g with 7 carrots remaining

 

small bundle of mint in a zip loc bag dated 7-26-03 (Freezer)

 

2 uncooked turkey burgers in an undated zip loc bag (Freezer)

 

1 bag super A green peas 20oz 1lb4oz 567g (Freezer)

 

Mrs. Smith’s Bake It Fresh Sweet Potato (pie) net wt 2lb5oz 1.05kg (Freezer)

 

YVES Veggie Cuisine The Good Dog (Freezer)

lowfat juicy and authentic tasting meatless 11oz  312g

4 dogs of package of 6 12 aug 03

 

12 small containers containing medium for Harthritis (Freezer)

 

 

 

© 2003 David Greg Harth

03.08.14.16:11:00 @ 296NYC

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